Sunday, September 27, 2015

Our Life: Pizza & Parenting

As a high school teacher, I routinely see youth in pursuit of "adult-ness." Kids do all kinds of things that they think will make them grownup. Some of these kids are more mature than others, but I think the ones who simply relish their status are few and far between. 

I can recall my own days of adolescence in much the same state. I was always seeking "next." In high school, I was ready for college. In college, I was ready for a job. In a relationship, I was ready for marriage. In marriage, I was ready for baby. And then - over two years ago now, that had all happened for me, and it gave me great pause. Where was the "next?" What was the "next" supposed to be? I had checked all the boxes off my giant to do list. 

I had some very real growing pains after Moose was born, grappling with this  unknown territory. I didn't know what I should be working towards next, and of course I had no idea just what it was I was doing being a mom. When the Lord blessed us with a second pregnancy, things began to change for me. I realized that it could (and very well may be) my last pregnancy. The glowing, radiating, pinnacle of my teenage-dreamed up success hierarchy would be done. With Moose that felt overwhelming- depressing even, but the second time? It felt triumphant. I felt powerful. I had this realization that if this was going to be the last chance I had to be this person I had always dreamed about, then I would embrace it and ROCK IT! And that is exactly what I did with my pregnancy with Bo. I owned it. I loved it, and as a result I felt so much more confident when he arrived in the world.

Somewhere in those nine months o found my "next." Mom. Three simple letters, but my teenage visions of the future went only as far as the big belly and fun cravings. I never really imagined the rest - you know the ACTUAL LIFE PART, and do you know what's so dadgum funny about it... It's the BEST PART OF MY WHOLE LIFE.

I feel spoiled sometimes that I get to be a wife and a mom. We have a happy, healthy home, and I am beyond grateful. It's so much more than I could have ever put on that checklist of my life. There's rarely any high action drama. I am one of those people that I thought was Lame with a capital L, but I find myself wishing I could tell every black fingernail polish wearing girl that there's so much MORE. Just more.

I wish I could convey how incredible it is to watch your nearly one year old climb into his brother's chair at the table and steal the rest of his pizza. Then watch him toddle around trying to be just like big brother. The love, seriously, the incredible fullness of your heart for your husband and your kids and your own mom for going through it all with you. Seriously, it's a feeling that is more powerful than any of my nights of tear-filled angst.

Tomorrow, when I try to explain it to the teenagers, I am nearly certain it won't be heard the way I intend and half of them will think I'm crazy. But if I can get it through to one kid - high school is NOT. YOUR. LIFE. There's infinitely more out there for you. Just take your time and follow Gods plan for your life (and even if you make a few missteps along the way) you will see there's just more. Life is so worth it. Sometimes it just takes a few more years than you realize to get there.

Monday, September 14, 2015

Bo & Moose: 11 Months & 2.5 Years... We need a Time Turner

Bo How Big?: Do other moms walk around with a mental scale? Do you just know how big your kid is all the time? Or do you just weigh them more than at the doctors office. Poor baby Bo, I haven't weighed him in forever. Here's the deal - he's growing. Haha, poor second kid!
Bo Clothing xSize?: Jammie's are always so small... He's wearing 2T pjs. I think I am getting him 18-2T size pants. He also is headed to 2T shirts. He's still rocking a size 4 regular diaper, and we went to size 5 night diapers. Whew!!
Bo What/When is he eating?: I love my little monster man... Kid loves to eat!!!! His favorite food is still watermelon. He shovels it in his mouth until his cheeks are chipmunking, and the juice is running down his shirt. He is still on breastmilk - what what!?! Looks like he should make it to a year! I cannot believe after all the struggle I had with Moose that Bo is going to skip formula all together. 
Bo Sleep?: Bo wakes up around 3 several nights a week, but he also sleeps through the night several nights. It's a guessing game about whether he will wake up. The other night he started shrieking at midnight. No clue why - I think he's hungry and growing. 
Bo Milestones?: Bo has had a ton of milestones. My little Snicklefritz... He took TWO STEPS IN A ROW! Woohooo!! He was caught standing on his high chair tray twice - uh oh. Bo attended his first football game. He's got more and more teeth. This kid is getting so big so fast! 
Bo Movement?: See above because we almost have a walker!!!! 

Moose: 2 1/2 years 

Moose How Big?: Moose is sprouting again... He's well over 30 pounds and growing out of his old smaller pants again!!! 
Moose Clothing Size?: All size 6 diapers (still haven't potty trained him) and 3T-4T clothes... with 5T or 6 Pjs.
Moose What/When is he eating?: Moose is such a funny kid about food. He just isn't really into eating a whole lot. He is back on his blueberry kick - thank goodness, but it seems like he would totally forgo eating, if we were to let him have ketchup and milk. (Of course, we would never do that, but still!) He will eat chicken with "special ketchup" aka BBQ sauce, lol.
Moose Sleep?: Moose sleeps through the night and hasn't napped in about a million years. He crashes out at about 5PM once a week, if we are in the car, but he always seems so tired! I wish he would do a little more quiet time, so he could get some calm moments... but no go! 
Moose Milestones?:  Chatty little Cathy... Moose loves to talk and talk and talk. He says the darndest stuff, too. He will say, "No mommy don't sit there." Then he promptly commands me to sit on the floor. How polite sir. He has created a new game of "Under," where he likes to hide under the covers - you must accompany him under - and then pop out and ROAR! 
Moose Movement?:   Moose has faith and flying squirrel like movement! Kid will jump 

Family: August 2015
Hardest Moment(s) of the Month:  Going back to work this month was hard. After a crazy, busy, wonderful summer of fun with the kids and our friends and family, it was so heel-dragging to get back into the swing of things. 
Best Moment(s) of the Month: Family moments are awesome!!! I love getting to lounge around on a Saturday in our pjs all day. There's almost nothing better. Hearing the boys laughter while they play with each other is the coolest thing. They have started to wrestle each other. It's so a part of their DNA to be such rough and tough boys. 
Looking Forward to:  I am looking forward to this next season. I have loved the summer and the heat this year, but as the air starts to cool off, I know I am so excited for Bo's first birthday and Halloweend and Thanksgiving and aLLL the super fun things on the agenda!